At times I feel like the popular kid on the block. Frequently there are too many things going on that cause me have to favor one event over the other.
At the same time, I'm friends or acquaintances with many but good friends with very few. I suppose that's the norm for most people, but with me each of my close friends seem to be in a different circle. There is no central group where I feel truly assimilated. Instead I feel like an outlier. An outsider even.
I can know everyone I'm out with and still not feel like I belong. It's frustrating. Worse yet, the concept of bringing all of my close friends into a single room causes me to envision nothing but chaos.
They're like oil and water, but then what does that make me? Are my interests and thoughts really so diverse that my friends can each be so different?
2 comments:
It makes you social, and yes friends truly can be diverse. But diversity is a great thing.
I have too many friends, and circles, I do try occasionally to mix them - it would certainly make meeting up with people easier.
To be honest I can't say I fully understand the statement I can know everyone I'm out with and still not feel like I belong coz I've got a few circles where that just doesn't happen. But there are some circles where a smaller element of that might trickle through.
NOTHING! but chaos! ... can so definitely agree with that one. In terms of belonging...I think it's more of a slight unsettling, rather than not belonging.
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