#79: indifference

I've been granted so many opportunities and it feels like the world is mine for the taking if I can only muster up the energy to go after it. Instead, all I can see to muster up is indifference. It is because of this that I associate this feeling not only with complacency but ungratefulness.

It's like I've forgotten my incredibly modest background. Son of a bus driver and cook, the grad degree, the travel, the NYC apartment and the job that I have are nothing short of a dream come true just 4 short years ago.

I need to do something about this funk and fast because complacency is a sure route to regret.

#78: i gotta feeling..not

Yesterday I was late meeting a friend for coffee and I decided to run to meet him. Normally not a big deal since I'm usually late and I tend to run a lot.

This time however, while running I twisted my left foot. It hurt like hell but I was still walking on it. In fact I did quite a bit of walking on it just fine right after. After coffee I walked quickly (instead of running) to meet some of my friends for dinner as coffee had run over and I was now late for that. Being late really is my M.O.)

Anyways I sit down to dinner for about an hour or so and then when I try to stand up I can't. I literally end up hopping out of the restaurant and having one of my friends take me to the hospital "fast-track" where I had an x-ray done and apparently I sprained my foot but didn't break anything.

Regardless, this city is not meant for those unable to walk. Everything from subway stairs to walk up apartments (I live on the 3rd floor) make me uninterested in leaving my apartment until my foot is healed.

It's funny because before I was leaving home I was grooving to this song "I Gotta Feeling" by the Black Eyed Peas which goes "I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night,
that tonight's gonna be a good night" and I was actually in a great mood and feeling like it really WAS gonna be a good night.

Clearly it wasn't....I couldn't help but laugh at this.

PS, If anyone wants to bring me food...... :)

#77: Palm Pre or Apple iPhone?

I've waited 2 years to get an Apple iPhone. 2 Years!

In 2007, I was in the middle of my contract and refused to pay the $200 Early Termination Fee that Sprint would have charged me to leave so I decided to wait until my contract ran out in 2008.

In 2008, my contract ran out just as the iPhone 3G was announced and I was thinking "Great!"

Then however came word that I'd be working from London for 4-5 months. At this point I figured it made no sense to get a new phone just to not use it (or pay outrageous roaming fees) for 5 months so again I held off.....

I came back from London on Feb 28, 2009 and at this point I figured it made no sense getting one as a new iPhone was surely on it's way in a few months.

Fast forward to today and I was right. There is a "new" iPhone but it's not really THAT new or groundbreaking. It's the equivalent of adding more RAM to your computer. It's good but hardly innovative.

While I lusted for the iPhone for 2 years I never once saw any other phone as a credible competitor. Well until the Palm Pre that is. Every feature I craved on the iPhone plus the ones I didn't even know I wanted was present and accounted for. It even has a full keyboard.

Now both phones are available and I'm at a loss for what to get. I can get the new iPhone 3GS but it's OS is looking a bit tired and lacking some basic things that should be there (like true multitasking instead of lame "push" notifications) or I can get the Pre and be forced to make do with 8GB of memory but have tons of features that seem really innovative and cool.

Not to mention the $150 a year or so more I'd have in my pocket since the Pre has a cheaper monthly plan with more features.

Here comes probably the most disturbing reason I may not get an iPhone. I'm a gadget snob and it seems like EVERYONE already has one (based on the amount I see on the subway anyways) and with the reduced $99 version everyone WILL have one.

What's a boy to do?